My husband tells me often that I can take anytime I need for myself. I can take the class, brunch with friends or anything I desire. I end up doing is sitting at home with my son. I find a good book to read to him. I just take the miracle of him all in. I know that he is not my mommy time but I still find comfort in him. When we are home for days alone I don't get overly excited when we go our separate ways because I can let him amaze me each minute. That is my quality time alone. He is such a reflection of me that it can scare me.
I do understand that I have to make the time for myself. Take a day off. Date myself again. I don't care for going to the movies but maybe sushi lunch. Spa time to just enjoy breathing. I will try in 2016 to do it more. I will add it to my goals for my own health. My sanity was testing in 2015 but I think I am reclaiming it in 2016. More of enjoying the moments. More of not stressing what I cannot change. More for ME. As I am writing this the tears are flowing because I still feel lost. I feel lost in all the world but if I declare the best for me and my family then it all makes sense. That is what I will tell myself. that is what I will say this is all about. It is all about happiness.
If you are a mom that has gotten lost in it all you can always make a change. You can always take time for YOU. Take a walk. Get a pedicure. Write down your dreams. Read that book. You can! You will! Now go enjoy TIME.
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